Focus

My main focus for the year 09 is to do what I have to do in school...and do damage on the field...All Americans is what it is...I will be nothing but the best...and settle for nothing other then the best...No cornballs will be allowed to inter my life...nor throw me off my focus for greatness...
I have come to realize that my one true love is Track & Field...as much as he stresses me out and we have our good days and bad days...he will always make me happy...we been throw so may wins together to throw it away...and he doesn't cheat...or betray my trust or play me like a fool...
School work...and the field is what its all about in 09...
Duces

I write

I write...
I write because its calming and comforting.
I write because its a way of expressing myself without showing outrageous anger.
Writing...
Writing for me can lead to other things such as me wanting to tell people to kick rocks.
Writing for me lets me say thing's l can not when I am around them...though I do not bite my tongue, so don't get the two confused.
I find...
I find writing to be helpful in such ways...
Such ways...I dare not say because people get offended.
Now...
Now that I think about that...
I don't give a DAMN!
I find people...many people...including my "closest friends" to take me for advantage.
Advantage...
Advantage as in calling me out of the blue asking if I can take them somewhere
or pick them up,
or take them here or there...
I never get a,"Thank you Roo," or "Roo do you want to do something or go somewhere."

Hell maybe it's me just being nice...

To nice...
To nice to not say, NO, or I have plans, sorry no can do.

I'm pissed...
I'm pissed because I am to nice to EVERYONE...
The funny thing is I don't have a mean bone in my body...
I have...
I have a weakness for people.
A weakness to always wanting to help someone out and make sure they are okay...even if they make a fool out of my kindness.
Then I come to realize, no one does that for me...
My Aunt died today...and not one of my,"closet friends" has called to see if I was okay... except for 2, Jonathon and Jaysen...also including Bryce
I write...
I write because I'm angry and I hate selfish people...
I write because I have lost all hope to try and talk
I write because this is the last thing left in me to do...
Just write...
I Write

Fools & Love

Fools & Love...
For some reason I always seem to get the two confused all the time
My out look now in it is this:
F...is forever and always will I love you but you will never come to do the same
O...is obviously you will never change and keep toying with my emotions.
O...is obsession that I have lost for you and have realized that you never had it for me hahaha what a joke
and last but not least,
L...is LUST
Which was all we both played on...nothing more and nothing less.

LOVE was never there...it was a figment of our imagination's Well at least of mines. I never loved you. It was a joke.
I sit here and write and have honestly realized that the joke was on you...and all this time I thought it was on me.
Tear's wasted over you and I never realized that you weren't crying over me.
When I thought of you, you never thought of me.
A funny joke
Now I'm laughing and moving on.
I am not giving up on every good man because I know there is someone out there who will love me just as much as I loved them.
Ladies we are beautiful, precious, and rare diamonds in the ruff.

Heart

I'm falling apart & barley breathing from a broken heart.
The feeling of a nothing ever being there.
Scared and alone.
My heart hurts.
My heart bleeds of pain and sorrow,
And yet,
My heart still beats with hope
Hope for happiness.
Hope for redemption.
Hope for fear.
and,
A Hope for love.
My Heart is one of the hardest things in my life & having words in your heart that you can't utter...is one hell of a feeling

Voice

It never failed me to be as strong as I am

It never failed me to have ambition
It never failed me to love my family, friends, and even my enemies!!!
I haven’t always been this way though.
In the past I was, scared, alone and afraid.
Of what?
Of being myself!!!
I have been told that, if I was compared to any women in history, it would be Maya Angloue
Not because of my childhood and past
Not because of my mind and soul
Not because of my inner beauty
Not even because of my accomplishments,
but because I have a voice like no other!
I have what u call “my own voice”
A voice that is truly spoken from the heart.
A voice that is confident
A voice that has determination
A voice that is original and not copy written
But I can call,
My Own

Ignorance

"It's the ignorance of others that determines this countries outcome, not the skin color of our president"
-Roo

Write

I you feel like you have the upper hand in what I do say and think
You don't like why I right
Fuck it
I can care less
I don't need your aproval or your comments
You stay doing it is that you do and I'm going to keep doing and being me.
I'm going to keep dancing
Keep running and for damn sure,
Keep writing.........