"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh"
Stupid alarm...
Stumbling out of bed rubbing my eyes wondering why I'm up at 11a.m.
11:20a.m. goes by...
A half an hour shower using up all the hot water.
11:50a.m. comes...
I carefully lotion every inch of my body twice, I then start to dress myself. From my feet, working my way up...different huh...!
12:30noon rolls around...
"Why is there traffic this late in the day."
1:20p.m. and just sitting here...
Sitting here in this classroom thinking about when its going to be over and what I'm doing later on today.
5p.m. and still wondering...
Wondering why my life is so different...
5:45p.m. with my peoples...
Another sit down dinner with my family.
Smiling, laughing, and talking about how our days went as a whole.
6:45p.m. finding myself...
I'm finding my self sitting in my room on my facebook thinking who the this person is that has friend requested me, while multitasking a paper that's due tomorrow morning at 8.
9p.m comes...
Minutes are free baby...
and talking on the phone for along duration's of time with random friends about nothing important and laughing about the stupidest things.
12:50 is here...
another day has passed and I'm sitting laying here in my bed crying because I feel so empty...
It will be a year in February 09 that my grams has been dead...
It will have been will have been 7 year's my Aunt Anent has been gone also...
It will have been going on 5 years my father has been in ja
il.
Anger runs through my vanes of everything that's happen over the past 9 years
Foster care, being on and out of schools...
2:10a.m. laying here...
After crying and thinking for so long,
I settle into bed and relax...
I fall into a deep sleep and to wake up and repeat this day over again.
Stupid alarm...
Stumbling out of bed rubbing my eyes wondering why I'm up at 11a.m.
11:20a.m. goes by...
A half an hour shower using up all the hot water.
11:50a.m. comes...
I carefully lotion every inch of my body twice, I then start to dress myself. From my feet, working my way up...different huh...!
12:30noon rolls around...
"Why is there traffic this late in the day."
1:20p.m. and just sitting here...
Sitting here in this classroom thinking about when its going to be over and what I'm doing later on today.
5p.m. and still wondering...
Wondering why my life is so different...
5:45p.m. with my peoples...
Another sit down dinner with my family.
Smiling, laughing, and talking about how our days went as a whole.
6:45p.m. finding myself...
I'm finding my self sitting in my room on my facebook thinking who the this person is that has friend requested me, while multitasking a paper that's due tomorrow morning at 8.
9p.m comes...
Minutes are free baby...
and talking on the phone for along duration's of time with random friends about nothing important and laughing about the stupidest things.
12:50 is here...
another day has passed and I'm sitting laying here in my bed crying because I feel so empty...
It will be a year in February 09 that my grams has been dead...
It will have been will have been 7 year's my Aunt Anent has been gone also...
It will have been going on 5 years my father has been in ja
il.Anger runs through my vanes of everything that's happen over the past 9 years
Foster care, being on and out of schools...
2:10a.m. laying here...
After crying and thinking for so long,
I settle into bed and relax...
I fall into a deep sleep and to wake up and repeat this day over again.
2 comments:
sweetheart i just want 2 say that u r very intelligent u r a strong person 4 sharing your life 4 ppl 2 c how hard u had it n still made it.u r beautiful but dnt think it.n i thank u 4 giving me a chance 2 have a conversation with.thank u sweetheart
Thank you Honey
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