Thoughts pt 2

I've come to the conclusion that my heart, meaning, me caring for others, is my strength as well as my weakness.
I stress myself out...for what?
Hell I don't even know...smh
I'm starting to think that love is the extremely if not the most difficult realization that something other than oneself is real...Funny huh...?
You know my grams once told me: Falling in love with someone isn't always going to be easy There will be anger, tears and laughter but it's when you want to be together despite it all. That's when you truly love another...
Idk its just something I was thinking about...

Thoughts

Tears...
Tears are words the heart can't express...
Words unspoken, unheard of, etc.
For they are the words my lips whispered, but never so often misunderstood.
Hears a secret...
Ready...
In the silence of night when I'm all alone in my room or where ever I am,
I have often wished for just a few words of what I'm feeling and what I want.
I'd rather not me heard to this point in my life...
Rather than the fake applause of thousands of people who think that know what's going on.
Feelings...
Music is what feelings sound like.
The drums represents the heart...
The sweet sound of the flute flows like the vanes...and,
The amazing sound of the saxophone to clear the mind like the brain
Yes...
Amazing isn't it
My grams used to tell me I had great Strength of character
Strength of character means the ability to overcome resentment against others, to hide hurt feelings, and to forgive quickly
When all is said and done,
We are part of each other.
That's the way it was meant to be.
People are brought together for a reason,
Everything happens for a reason.
I believe the reason that you and me, he and she us and them
Were brought together was because we complete one another.
We fill in each others missing spots with love excitement, joy, pain, sorrow, etc.
If someday God decides to tear us apart,
I trust that there is a reason.
Cause if there is a reason for love,
There is a reason for life beyond it.
Just my thought
I had a ruff hour...smh lol

Look Back At Me

"I can't take this anymore,

All u do is tell me what I can and can't do...you too controling," say's Megan to boyfriend Jake

"You feel like the damn world revolves around your head just because your daddy gave you everything that you ever wanted."

Arguing isn't what any of us want in our relationships.

Screaming, yelling, tears, and thought of being alone.

But the truth is this:

Even then best of us argue.

You see the thing with arguing.

It becomes anger.

Anger will never disappear so long as thoughts of resentment are cherished in the mind.

Anger will disappear just as soon as thoughts of resentment are forgotten.

You will not be punished for your anger, but will be punished by your anger.

What you want is that last look.

So that you have that reassurance that you guys arn't over.

Then you slowly whisper to yourself,

"Look Back At Me"

Why

Sometimes when I'm speaking,
I realize,
My words can't keep up with my thoughts.
I wonder why sometimes I think faster than the words I speak.
Why is it when we speak to one another,
Its seems as so neither is listening and there is lack of communication
It becomes an on going pattern.
Then come the question asked,
"Please explain why your silence makes more noise than thunder?"
With the simple reply back,
"Even silence speaks."
Someone once told me,
The greatest gift you can give another is the full focus of your attention.

Why is that?

Forbidden Love

So what is forbidden love?

Forbidden love puts one in a mood to risk everything and not to withhold elements to her/his own life.

Forbidden love finds a way to its freedom and knows no rules nore boundries.

I'm ready to reveal my deepest secret,

One I've tried to hide I have falling love.

Not just any love.

Forbidden Love.

Knowing we can never be together for so many reasons.

Reason's I can't bare to understand.

I know this though...

I stand here at the shore waiting with a white dress on and a single balloon in my hand for u my love <3

Until then...

Our love shall be...

Forbidden.

Sex Appeal

Some people say,
Sex Appeal is how sexy you are and what kind of sexual vibe you send out through your appearance.
A lot of people have a natural sex appeal and its because they have this sexual glow to them.
Sex Appeal.
Its as easy as 1,2,3
Sex appeal is sexual attraction.
It what drives our hormones to go CRAZY!
"Damn, she's bad" or
"Girl, he can get it anytime he want."
Its that thing that makes us want more
We feed from it.

Blindness

My blindness leads me to define my ignorance.
The feeling of a young refugee fleeing to escape danger from one's own hell and confusion.
Caught in a storm...
Rushing emotions,
Thunder like anger,
Clouds of in denial.
Free me from this hell...
My ignorance lacks knowledge, which leads to my decline of sophistication as well as intelligence.
My down fall...
My ignorance
The betrayal of one's self that defines who we are as human beans .
Our Blindness