Haters

TO ALL THE HATER I SAY THIS

I sit here and look back on everything that has taken place this first semester in college.
I've made some bone head choices, meaning:
People I talked and chilled with
Who I decided to tell my business too.
What I did when it came to my education
When and what classes and I decided to blow off and say, “I’ll go tomorrow", or “I’ll make it up"
To everyone who knows and doesn't know...It's a good chance I might not return next semester because of these stupid choices I made but that doesn't make me any less of a person and less educated then you.
The funny thing is, I've learned in this process is this...
Everyday people ask, "Roo, you’re not coming back..."? I tell them, it's good chance I won’t because I messed up...
They say we'll miss u but in the back of my minds, I know they laugh and hell, I'm laughing with you because it's funny, especially to all my haters.
You know all ones who wanted me to fail...
Well l say this to you all...and it's a promise...
You'll get yours don't u worry.
Hating is the sincerest form of flattery
It's better to be hated for who you are than to be loved for who you are not.
I know I'm not a failure, but a person who learns from her mistakes.
I say this,
Can't any BITCH or BULL take my place on this campus...
If u feel I am address this to you... that take this all and SUCK THIS DICK
I will be back on my "A" game next semester making new friends, and jumping my ass off.
I've grown as a person, a lover, an athlete, but most important... A STUDENT!
See all u hating ass people at GRADUATION in 2012

Duces...

Focus

My main focus for the year 09 is to do what I have to do in school...and do damage on the field...All Americans is what it is...I will be nothing but the best...and settle for nothing other then the best...No cornballs will be allowed to inter my life...nor throw me off my focus for greatness...
I have come to realize that my one true love is Track & Field...as much as he stresses me out and we have our good days and bad days...he will always make me happy...we been throw so may wins together to throw it away...and he doesn't cheat...or betray my trust or play me like a fool...
School work...and the field is what its all about in 09...
Duces

I write

I write...
I write because its calming and comforting.
I write because its a way of expressing myself without showing outrageous anger.
Writing...
Writing for me can lead to other things such as me wanting to tell people to kick rocks.
Writing for me lets me say thing's l can not when I am around them...though I do not bite my tongue, so don't get the two confused.
I find...
I find writing to be helpful in such ways...
Such ways...I dare not say because people get offended.
Now...
Now that I think about that...
I don't give a DAMN!
I find people...many people...including my "closest friends" to take me for advantage.
Advantage...
Advantage as in calling me out of the blue asking if I can take them somewhere
or pick them up,
or take them here or there...
I never get a,"Thank you Roo," or "Roo do you want to do something or go somewhere."

Hell maybe it's me just being nice...

To nice...
To nice to not say, NO, or I have plans, sorry no can do.

I'm pissed...
I'm pissed because I am to nice to EVERYONE...
The funny thing is I don't have a mean bone in my body...
I have...
I have a weakness for people.
A weakness to always wanting to help someone out and make sure they are okay...even if they make a fool out of my kindness.
Then I come to realize, no one does that for me...
My Aunt died today...and not one of my,"closet friends" has called to see if I was okay... except for 2, Jonathon and Jaysen...also including Bryce
I write...
I write because I'm angry and I hate selfish people...
I write because I have lost all hope to try and talk
I write because this is the last thing left in me to do...
Just write...
I Write